b'where I subconsciously believed thatI didnt kill my ego, The Tyrant. my true self wasnt enough. I stopped identifying with it.Im literally just a guy. As much as it was debilitating,A peasant. A commoner.The Tyrant got things done. I can confidently say,It protected my mind for the shame and I am worthy because I exist.the guilt of the loss of my autonomy asI value hard work, dedication, a child. But, I had to loosen the leashpersistence, and patience now. I teach on my resentment. myself the skills of my chosen trade.1 I let myself become what was aI encourage myself to participate in loser to my kingly eyes. Unemployedcommunity. I know the importancefor close to 3 years. Got deep intoof self-respect and respect for others spirituality, the occult, shadow and egoin my interactions. I develop a balanced work. I grieved the childhood I wish Ilife between work and pleasure, had. I wept. I fought. I cursed. promoting emotional stability.2 I started being who I always wanted to be. I havent spoken to my father in two years. Hes a stranger to me.I had to remember what light I had behind my eyes. I started writing andKindred Soul | Ash Evansdrawing again.I started making TikTok videos.I lost weight, wore makeup, and redecorated my room.I went back to fucking school! Which I vowed never to do again. For fucking entrepreneurship.Having no choice to follow my dreams while being broke. 3I didnt get tired of myself. I stayed by my side.I became my own parent, my own teacher, my own friend, my own lover.I continue to be stuck in my bedroom,with Americas shit economy, farcical hiring practices,and the rising costs of rent, but I still dream of a day based on my own terms.volume 16 | SPARK 2024-2515'